feelings......

Had a talk with mummy...
she was so worried about the melaka trip..
cos she dunno yih shin they all...
i actually understand, but i really feel like going.
anyway, i still will get her permission before i go.
then she slowly told me about bro n sis.
of cos, as a mum she cares a lot of them.
but my bro n sis dun seems like understand her.

my bro always go out.... n dun really study..
the number of time my bro communicate with dad/mum could just be counted using my 10 fingers. haihz. tats y they n even me dun really understand him. although i m quite close to him, but he treat me like a little girl. n i dun know when he lying or saying truth. cos i trust him too easily.. -.-" i actually talked to him yesterday too. he kept quiet when i talked. he was juz listening quietly... i hope he really listen n change after tat... i care a lot for him n really a lot! i even teared when i talked to him yesterday. i know he understand n actually know about his prob.. juz tat he kept running away from it...
(kor, dun run from ur probs dy... u need to face them anyway one day. feel free to talk to me.. i will always be there.. =) n lastly, dun be a playboy.. find a good girl... stop fooling around!!! stop HURTING girls' feeling... love u )

My sis... she always quarrel with my mum.
their personalities are too alike dy...
both oso wont tolerate... especially my sis...
they cant talk nicely.... everyday fight fight fight.... aiks
i talked to her few months ago. when her attitude was the worst.. but i realized some changes in her after tat. tats good...yesterday my sis wanted to get money from mum for her sabah trip.. but mummy dunwan giv. then they start fighting. there's reason mum dunwan her to go.. cos she thinks tat in our age, we shouldnt travel so much. n studies still the most important thing for us. sis went SG last holiday n now sabah. i understand her feeling.. of cos if i m her, i oso wanna go la.. but, my sis didnt really ask for permission. n straight get money from mum.. my mum dun even know who she going with.. how they go.. n where they stay n all. of cos she worry la..
n about her love relationship. aiks.. mum juz scare her do the wrong things but i know she wont. she aint tat dumb. actually wat they lack of is communication. i think they should find 1 day, talk to each other nicely, n make things clear....

mummy said a lot more. n the conclusion is she juz worry of us... mum actually juz wants them to put more time in the family, house. sis n bro always be the one who absent for those special occasion like aunty's birthday, dinner n all. dad n mum juz want them to care of the family more. n to her, i m still little girl though i m dy 19 years old.she teared when she talked to me... at the moment, my heart was so so pain... younger bro, Sam was there too. both of us went to hug her.... i can feel the pain in her heart. i can feel the " wu nai"....... end up, sam n i teared.. -.-" i dunno y i always be the one. the one who talk to mum... this is not the 1st time we talking about this kind of issue. n i always be the one who talk to sis n bro. i juz couldnt stand it. i always wan to make things clear.

of cos i m not perfect. there's a lot of things i need to learn.
my temper, some bad attitude...
needs time....
fuuuuuuuuu~~ i feel so good after saying outeverything... =)